1) I forgot my username & password...
2) I had serious crampage going on due to my favorite monthly visitor and couldn't get out of bed...
3) I typed up an amazing long blog on being the coolest person ever & it accidentally got deleted...
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4) *deep breath* My
*COUGH*
Okay, okay, you caught me!! That was actually the real reason!!! I know!! I know!! Calm down you
I know what some of you are thinking!! You're thinking it's good for him and that it builds his self esteem and makes him stronger!! That sooner or later he has to be faced with the reality of life!!
I agree.
I really don't think all of those negative things I said earlier...I know that there is so much good and beauty and truth in the world!! There is so much I want him to know and learn and experience...there is so much I want him to take in and grow from!! I want him to be eager in knowing about this big universe and place we live!! I'm so excited for the life that he has ahead of him...I'm so excited for the mistakes that he will be making and learning from to be a better person!! I'm so excited to watch the man he will grow to be!!
After the first week of him in school, I've realized that yes, he is my world...and my world is beautiful...I want the world to see him...and know him...and feel his sweet spirit!! My kid totally rocks and it would just be selfish to keep him cooped up and not share him with the rest of the world!! However, I now know exactly how it feels to have my heart physically beat out of my chest from 7:45 in the morning until 2:45 in the afternoon!!! The days seem like YEARS!!!
Every morning I tell him, "Remember who you are!" and he replies, "I already know mama! I'm a child of God!"...I think he's ready for this big bad world, don't you?!
Oh Jaz...I'm crying, my heart hurts....you hit the nail on the head. This is exacty how I feel about my sweet Kenny. I can't believe it's time for him to go to school! I don't want another woman getting to enjoy him all day every day. It makes me sad. Big hugs and thanks for being so brave. I'll need a lesson in a few weeks when I send Kenny off:(
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard to let them go! I'm crying reading that you're crying!! Oh gosh!! This can't be good!! Our poor sons have crazies for mamas!!! I love you Sunny!!
ReplyDeletei remember when i took joseph to kindergarten...i cried the whole way to the school and the whole way home and worried all day long, too. it's hard to send them away, just like all those things you said. you are (both) great mommies and your kids know it...they are off to share your awesomeness with the world!!!!!! :) love you and love your incredible boys!
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